And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah, I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

Wow, I slack off on updating this thing, and my xanga...well, xanga is stupid. The end. And so is school. I have rehearsal for SOMETHING after school today...and I just sorta don't want to go. Like, at all. Gaaaaahhhh...today is such a blah day, I need to go shopping. Or out. Or SOMETHING. I've got rehearsals this weekend, and HOPEFULLY my someone seksay is coming down. If not, oh well. I'll find something to do that isn't rehearsing. I need to stop typing, as I have nothing to say, but it's kinda fun. Wooooowww...random post...Bill likes his chip clip a bit too much. And I think he just fucked up the laptop.

Well, we tried.

Today wasn't all that bad, other than a bit of a break down in lunch (Thank God for Andrew, he always calms me down). The read-through was fun, the townspeople made their characters, and then I took pictures with Ema and Chelsea. Dad and I are gonna go grab some food here pretty soon...yep, that's it.

Same old routine.Wake up late, get to school, two teachers hate me, boring day, fail a test, livened up slightly by Romeo and Juliet rehearsal. Last to be picked up from rehearsal, come home, wait and wait for Brandon to get on, he gets on, we talk a bit, then one or both of us is either too tired or too dead-minded to talk much longer, one or both of us get to bed.

"And I swear it's the last time, and I swear it's my last try. And we'll walk in circles around that whole block, walk on the cracks of the same old sidewalks. And we'll talk about leaving town, yeah we'll talk about leaving...I swear it's my last time, and I swear it's my last try..."

Updating in English because I can. w00t. The lap tops are freaking sweet, I want one. Clint is reading over my shoulder because he's a future pool boy. He is learning the dance of the pool boy as we speak. Anyway, we're discussing blues music, and I need to bring in some blues lyrics. I'm torn between "Yer Blues" by the Beatles, or something entirely different. I'll ask Bill, he's the blues expert. I feel soooo much better than I did yesterday, cuz I got plenty of sleep and food last night. w00t. Anyway, Romeo and Juliet practice after school today, I should be home at about six-ish.

I'm out, love you all.

Gah...I am SO fucking tired. I had rehearsals after school, then went to Meg's, then we worked on the project, I got into a fight with my father, and I decided to just stay here. I don't want to go home, I don't want to talk to my dad, I don't want anything to fucking do with the man right now...he refuses to EVER give me a goddamn break from school if I'm not dying or running a fever over 100 degrees. I could be stressed, falling apart, crying, and damn near a break down (oh wait...I HAVE BEEN) and he'd still push my ass to school. Christ...alright, emo kid ranting is over. I'm good. I have my moments. Sorry y'all.

...I need some loud J-Rock...and a full-body massage, I am so tired and so stressed...I feel like I'm gonna just fall apart. Not EMOTIONALLY, but like, my arm's gonna fall off. Any moment. Eh...tis only a flesh wound...

Okay...I used to think Gackt was the hottest thing from Japan.

I mean, come ON! LADIES!!! LOOK AT THAT!!! Gackt is HAWT!

...then, today, I downloaded a L'Arc~En~Ciel music video. I've been a fan of Laruku's music, they're pretty good. I've also heard a bit about this Hyde guy (their lead singer) and how he'd done a movie (and later song) with afore mentioned Gackt. So I FINALLY see the guy...

OH...MY...GAWD...
Not to mention, in the video I watched ("Niji") he was being all seksay and nearly making out with his microphone! Which is HAWT!
Look at that! Just LOOK at that!

...I think Japanese music has finally eaten my soul. Luckily, the love of my life is somewhat Visual Kei, so I'm happy. ^^

Gooooood morning, LJ! For some reason, I'm in a good, bouncy mood. I need to get out and do something, cuz it's awesome outside...tonight, I'm gonna go see 1984 again. I'm full of sadinosity that they didn't advance, but at the same time, I'm really happy for them for doing so freaking awesome. I mean, seriously, when I first saw it my jaw dropped. Anyway...awesome job guys, we're all really proud of you!

So yeah, nothing to do til 7 pm...so until then, I'll sit and munch on my cereal. And listen to Reel Big Fish. w00t. Someone invent something to do!

I have been SO incredibly stressed lately. I know I've got too much on my plate, and now I have to finish it all...but I finally feel relaxed! It started to rain, so I just sat out and watched the rain for awhile, and then went out and actually stood in it for awhile. I just stood there, eyes closed, face tilted up, letting it wash all over me, and I feel so much better.

Spring rain is such a beautiful thing...

AqueousDrama: Ema...
AqueousDrama: ...you're my disco
normalSukx2007: playin on the radio bun

AqueousDrama: Ema, is that song badass seksay?
normalSukx2007: HELL YEA
AqueousDrama: :-D
normalSukx2007: you and me bun....and a radio

Keitz Power: Woah
Keitz Power: you could have sex to this...
Keitz Power: Bunny, we're listening to this tonight

normalSukx2007: I KNOW THIS SONG! it is a sex-able beat

The above was spurred when Ema and John expressed their dislike for techno...so I sent them each "You're My Disco" by Fischerspooner...and they had to agree that it was definately badass hawt seksay techno.

Gah, my stomach is SO upset...so yeah, I go to bed on time for once, and lay in bed awake til about two or so, tossing and turning, and sick to my stomach. Yeah, it was BAD...I was afraid to get up, because I felt as if the pizza I had at John's was about to come up. When I did actually sleep, I had weird ass dreams...and now I get to head out to school, which is gonna suck, because I don't feel good. I've got a Blue Spot rehearsal tomorrow (I think) that I dun really wanna go to x_X...thank god I only have about eight more weeks left of freshman year, I want to get it OVER with...

I'm out...leave comments if you love me, I'll be home at the usual time.

So yeah...my weekend's been busy. Thursday, went to the movies. Friday, hung out at John's house. Saturday, more hanging out at John's house. Sunday, Easter with the family, and today, D&D at John's house. Yesterday, I made prom plans with Shelli...I am SO excited about prom! I have a gorgeous dress, cute shoes, a gorgeous date (*wink*)...things'll be awesome. Anyway, I'm out!

So yeah, yesterday was fun. School was okay, until band, AND BAND SUCKS. I mean, IPC was fun compared to band (because we got to play with slinkies, yay! The METAL kind, too!)! We played soccer during Spanish, on a very very wet and slippery field. I carried new buddy Taylor on my back for about ten feet, that was fun...he's LIGHT! Me, him, and Marcus snuck over and widened our team's goal and we STILL lost. Theater was kinda cool; lunch, we pow-wowed with Robby. Geoggers was fun, because Bill and I were being obnoxious and making jokes about Brian, nose nickels, and other strange things. English, Mr. Hall walked in while we're doing silent reading, and it's WELL known that our principal doesn't like silent reading. It's something productive! *gasp of d00000m* Algebra was Algebra. After school, I met the gang at the Love Shack (Tiffee's room) then went to Z's room (Mrs. Zweschper, future theater teacher and my future interp coach) for the "Night Sky" read through. That was fun. Then Dad picked me up (HALF AN HOUR LATE) and took me to Funky Town (Calvin's house), we got into the taxi (Calvin's mom's truck), went to Taco Bell, and then to the movies, where me and John commenced to NOT SHUT UP. Here's some quotes from the night:

John: Why are the sandwiches crunching?
Bunny: In real life, she would so get stopped if she did that.
John: Ah, but you forgot about the deer, Bunny! This is THEIR domain now!
Ema: I'll bite you!
Calvin: SASSED!
Chelsea: That guy was SO checking you out!

And apparently I act like Sam Hughes...do I?

I'm out guys!

Okay, here's the wrap up of my day.

Morning: Get up, get dressed, talk to Pip, get out the door, talk to Rosie and Lauren at bus stop.
1st period: Culture week rages on. Guess some music, hang with uber cool new buddy Taylor, play bagpipes. Teach new buddy the sheep song.
2nd period: Screw band, went to theater. Ran lights, hung out with Matt Boone and Justin.
3rd period: Take notes. That class is stupid. It should die. End of STORY.
4th period: IMPROV GAMES!!! Those fucking ROCKED!!! Bantered with Justin.
5th period: Lunch. Hung out, no one act people. More bantering with Justin.
6th period: Geoggers met outside. Didn't pay attention. Goofed around with Bill.
7th period: Ummm...discussed tests/quizzes/editing crap. Dun remember.
8th period: Did homework. Yeah. That's about it.
Currently: failing miserably at keeping a straight face while listening to Brandon's version of the sheep song. For some reason, it's ten times funnier now that we're together. *buries face in pillow and laughs*

It's 7:30 AM (ignore the LJ clock)...and I am awake...and alert...after getting about five hours of sleep last night...how the HELL do I manage these things?

So yeah, alarm goes off at 6:45, and I wake up. Like, eyes wide open awake. Not quite sure WHY I'm awake, but awake nonetheless. Then I remember that I have school, so I throw on some clothes, do my makeup, and sit down with 45 minutes to spare. Christ, I can start sleeping later. My prediction is about sixth period, I'll be dead on my feet.

Sooooooo, here the rabbit sits; all dressed and ready, doughnut in stomach, lunch in bag, and classic rock in my ears. Romeo and Juliet results are posted today, I hope I got the narrator. I'm totally off-book for Juvie, which is freaking sweet. I dunno when rehearsals for Blue Spot start, or Night Sky. *le sigh* Theater has stolen my social life, and I ain't demanding it back...

And now for something completely different!

...I need to get laid...

So yeah, today was boring. Woke up at noon, talked to my uber hawtness of a boyfriend, went out to Wimberly with Dad, and just got home. But hey! I have Arizona tea! And I'm gonna post some cool little thingies!

<---only Pip'll get that