friends only

holy laverne



I am driving up 85 in the
kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom

Four more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood in places to make it feel like home
but all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul

Either way, I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on me
but it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
that's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
still "Everything happens for a reason"
is no reason not to ask myself

If you're living it right
Are you living it right?
Are you living it right?
Why, tell me why
Why, why Georgia why?


A little more grown up.
But still friends only.

Now to find more friends again :]

Apr. 12th, 2005

holy laverne
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah, I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

slacker

holy laverne
Wow, I slack off on updating this thing, and my xanga...well, xanga is stupid. The end. And so is school. I have rehearsal for SOMETHING after school today...and I just sorta don't want to go. Like, at all. Gaaaaahhhh...today is such a blah day, I need to go shopping. Or out. Or SOMETHING. I've got rehearsals this weekend, and HOPEFULLY my someone seksay is coming down. If not, oh well. I'll find something to do that isn't rehearsing. I need to stop typing, as I have nothing to say, but it's kinda fun. Wooooowww...random post...Bill likes his chip clip a bit too much. And I think he just fucked up the laptop.

...

holy laverne
Well, we tried.

Another day, another rehearsal

holy laverne
Today wasn't all that bad, other than a bit of a break down in lunch (Thank God for Andrew, he always calms me down). The read-through was fun, the townspeople made their characters, and then I took pictures with Ema and Chelsea. Dad and I are gonna go grab some food here pretty soon...yep, that's it.

meh...

holy laverne
Same old routine.Wake up late, get to school, two teachers hate me, boring day, fail a test, livened up slightly by Romeo and Juliet rehearsal. Last to be picked up from rehearsal, come home, wait and wait for Brandon to get on, he gets on, we talk a bit, then one or both of us is either too tired or too dead-minded to talk much longer, one or both of us get to bed.

"And I swear it's the last time, and I swear it's my last try. And we'll walk in circles around that whole block, walk on the cracks of the same old sidewalks. And we'll talk about leaving town, yeah we'll talk about leaving...I swear it's my last time, and I swear it's my last try..."

I'm in class, w00t

holy laverne
Updating in English because I can. w00t. The lap tops are freaking sweet, I want one. Clint is reading over my shoulder because he's a future pool boy. He is learning the dance of the pool boy as we speak. Anyway, we're discussing blues music, and I need to bring in some blues lyrics. I'm torn between "Yer Blues" by the Beatles, or something entirely different. I'll ask Bill, he's the blues expert. I feel soooo much better than I did yesterday, cuz I got plenty of sleep and food last night. w00t. Anyway, Romeo and Juliet practice after school today, I should be home at about six-ish.

I'm out, love you all.

o...m...f...g

holy laverne
Gah...I am SO fucking tired. I had rehearsals after school, then went to Meg's, then we worked on the project, I got into a fight with my father, and I decided to just stay here. I don't want to go home, I don't want to talk to my dad, I don't want anything to fucking do with the man right now...he refuses to EVER give me a goddamn break from school if I'm not dying or running a fever over 100 degrees. I could be stressed, falling apart, crying, and damn near a break down (oh wait...I HAVE BEEN) and he'd still push my ass to school. Christ...alright, emo kid ranting is over. I'm good. I have my moments. Sorry y'all.

...I need some loud J-Rock...and a full-body massage, I am so tired and so stressed...I feel like I'm gonna just fall apart. Not EMOTIONALLY, but like, my arm's gonna fall off. Any moment. Eh...tis only a flesh wound...

O_O THERE IS MORE OUT THERE!!!

holy laverne
Okay...I used to think Gackt was the hottest thing from Japan.
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I mean, come ON! LADIES!!! LOOK AT THAT!!! Gackt is HAWT!

...then, today, I downloaded a L'Arc~En~Ciel music video. I've been a fan of Laruku's music, they're pretty good. I've also heard a bit about this Hyde guy (their lead singer) and how he'd done a movie (and later song) with afore mentioned Gackt. So I FINALLY see the guy...
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OH...MY...GAWD...
Not to mention, in the video I watched ("Niji") he was being all seksay and nearly making out with his microphone! Which is HAWT!
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...I think Japanese music has finally eaten my soul. Luckily, the love of my life is somewhat Visual Kei, so I'm happy. ^^